Sorry, it's kind of long but I'm sending it anyways!

      Oh where do I begin with all the blessings the Lord has bestowed upon me! He has delivered me from every single evil thing that had power over me! It is so hard to find enough words to write about all He has done in my life! He is doing more things each and every day! The Lord is sooo GOOD! Praise Him!

     I was so lost before I met my precious Jesus. I was lost on a dark and lonely path. All around me was only sin, and darkness, and lonliness. People trying to hurt me and the devil attacking me on a constant basis. I felt there was no way out. The devil made me feel like I was the scum of the earth. That there was no one more filthy and dirty than me. So many things had happened in my life. The devil wanted so much to claim me for his own and he almost did, but the Lord
lifted me up out of that pit of black despair and washed the filth and the dirt from me and made me white as snow! He filled me with his sweet and beautiful love! His love just encompassed every fiber of my being!

     The devil attacked me at a very young age. He started early trying to wrench me from the Lord. I was sexually abused by my father, I had to witness my mother and siblings being beaten by him on a daily basis, but you know what? The Lord was there too! He was there all the way! He was there holding me up! Giving me strength to fight on and live on!

      I went to church early on, at the young age of five. My parents were not saved so I went with the pastor's daughter. My best friend. I learned of the Lord's love but the devil was there fighting. He used my father's sin against me to make me feel worthless, tainted and unclean, unfit for the Lord. I thought that He could never love me after knowing all the things that my father did to me. But you know what, He DID love me! He loved me sooo much that He died on the cross that day for me! ME! For such a long time, the devil kept that from me. He told me lies! He twisted scripture to use against me and told me that the Lord could never save me! He told me I was beyond salvation. And I struggled and struggled with these thoughts year after year.

     The abuse with my father continued and I felt so lost. Soon I turned away from the church and my attendance there dwindled down. The more I separated myself from the Lord, the more I gave the devil a foothold in my life and it only takes a foothold for the devil! Believe me! Well, I went spiraling down the path of drugs, drinking, and promiscuity. I was falling down into that pit. The devil almost had me for good, but the Lord was still there. He still loved me and He REFUSED to let me go! HE did what He knew would turn me to Him! He gave me the greatest blessing after salvation that He could. He placed a tiny baby in my womb.

     When I first found out, I was upset. I didn't know what to do. I can't say that I was shocked because the devil always had something new to oppress me with, but what I didn't realize at the time was that this was straight from the Lord. Not the devil at all. Well, as you might have guessed the first thoughts the devil put into my head was to have an abortion. Even though I had always felt this was murder, I still entertained the notion. I tried to convince myself that it wasn't a baby yet. Not really. And that I could go through with this. I could have an abortion. I didn't know what to do. The thought of an abortion made me sick to my stomach, but I didn't know what else to do. My life was a mess. I couldn't hang on to a steady job. I had failed out of college. I wasn't in love with the father of the baby and I knew that he had so many problems of his own. I was depressed beyond measure and I felt only darkness and the stench of death was upon me each day. The Lord was with me though! This was His special plan! He knew me before I was placed in my mother's womb and so the same with this baby I was carrying. Still I would not surrender to the Lord. I did not turn to him.

     Soon I found myself living with my parents and wanting to just die. I was so humiliated and just felt like the scum of the earth. The devil was succeeding in his plots. He was overcome with glee at the events of my life. I had played right into his plans for me and I was making him so proud. I was still thinking of abortion and then I would hurt for just thinking that awful word. I kept seeing an ad on TV for a pregnancy clinic so I made an appt. to talk with a counselor there. I was secretly hoping for them to show me some evidence to convince me that abortion was not murder. Well, let me tell you the shock I got when the clinic turned out to be a Christian pregnancy center. There they handed me a NIV bible and prayed for me. I felt the Lord's spirit immediately. Something I hadn't felt in sooo long! I prayed that salvation prayer and something happened to me! The Lord set me FREE! FREE from the grip of the devil! FREE from his plans of destruction for me! FREE from this life of sin and hopelessness! Oh It was INDESCRIBABLE! The feeling of peace and love that just swept over me and encompassed me! Oh to feel the Lord's anointing within you! Well, there is no feeling to compare it to! Oh the Lord took hold of my hand and lifted me out of that black pit of despair and brought me into the light! He gave me knowledge in His word. I hungered after it each day as a starved man hunts for food! Oh each and every word was meant for me! And I was told to keep my baby and that the Lord would be her father. The Lord would be my husband and He would PROVIDE for us!!! What needs could we have if the Lord was taking care of us! Oh what joy it is to finally know the Lord! To feel His presence and anointing in my life! It is like nothing I can describe! He is the Alpha and the Omega! The Beginning and the End! And He is there waiting for you! Pleading for you to turn to Him and accept His
precious sacrifice for your sins! He wants you to feel this peace and love that no other can give! All you have to do is pray to Him and surrender your life to Him! He will take you and equip you with His Amazing Spiritual Armor and He will breathe into you a NEW LIFE! One with anointing and joy and everything to live for! He loves you! And He longs for you to know Him too. Please accept His Precious Gift of JESUS CHRIST! Accept it into your heart today and I promise you! You will never be the same again! Just pray this with me now: